Creating While Parenting: Lauren Gibaldi

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Welcome to the first edition of Creating While Parenting! I'm so excited to introduce you to my first interviewee, Lauren Gibaldi.

Lauren lives in Orlando, FL, with her husband and two kids, ages 8 and 4. She and I met as debut authors back in 2013; we both released our first YA novels in 2015. In 2016, our second books came out on the same day! (We also joined forces, along with two other YA authors, for a mini book tour in North and South Carolina that summer. Road trip!) Lauren is still one of the people I email for advice and feedback, and I really hope we'll get to hang out in person again sometime soon.

You can learn more about Lauren, including what's coming down the publishing pipeline next for her, at her website: LaurenGibaldi.com. Connect with her on Twitter and Instagram. And don't forget to BUY HER BOOKS!

I'm so grateful to Lauren for agreeing to be one of my guinea pigs (my very first guinea pig!) for this new interview series. So, without further ado, here are her answers to my three questions:

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1. How would you describe yourself as a creator/artist/maker?

I'm what I (delightfully?) call a wri-brarian...a writer/librarian. While my two professions are completely separate, they intertwine in fun ways. I've been writing most of my life, going a bit more professional in college, when I had a column in a local newspaper. I was an editor/copywriter/article writer after that, and then my first novel, The Night We Said Yes, came out in 2015 with HarperCollins. Since then I've authored two additional novels, and co-edited (with Eric Smith) an anthology, Battle of the Bands, which released last year. I've been a librarian for almost 11 years, starting at a college campus, and then moving to a public library, where I am now. As a librarian, I predominantly work with children—recommending books, making displays, and creating/enacting programming and storytimes. I use my writing abilities to create scripts and songs for storytimes. I use my knowledge of books coming out to make recommendations. And on the other side, I use my knowledge of books coming into the library, and their popularity, to gauge what I might want to write, what might be missing in the market. It's a fun crossover, one I'm really proud of.

2. How does being a parent impact and interact with your creative life?

It admittedly makes everything harder, but also better, if that makes any sense at all. In my writer life, I have to force myself to write in the small snippets of time I'm allowed. It makes me value my free time more. It also makes me proud of what I'm doing in the time given. And, of course, my kids are inspirational—their likes/dislikes/quirks...all of them inspire me. I mention a banana moon in my third book, This Tiny Perfect World, because my daughter would always refer to it as that. In my librarian life, they're a great inspiration. I create programs around things they like, knowing other kids like similar things. Have I written my own educational songs and rhymes around Disney princesses, superheroes, Star Wars, and the like? I have! My daughters give me ideas, and I want to make them proud. And it's fun singing the songs I create for them. Also, I keep up more with children's literature. I may not have read Dog Man were it not for my eldest. And for them, I can always bring home all of the amazing books coming out. A current hit has been Endlessly Ever After—a choose-your-own-adventure picture book which is the ultimate in creativity.

3. What keeps you most connected to your creativity these days?

Well, for the librarian side, my paycheck, haha. But mostly my love of doing what I do. I love creating my programs at the library. And with writing, sure, I have off months when I don't find inspiration or time to do what I want. But I always come back to it. It's a need, I guess. A desire to keep doing it. Knowing how happy and accomplished it makes me feel.

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When the Routine Goes out the Window

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I've always been a creature of habit. I like routines. Rituals. Lists and spreadsheets. I'm not a huge fan of surprises. I really don't love chaos.

Here's the part where all of the parents reading this laugh and laugh, because what else is parenting besides a constant barrage of surprises and chaos?

Last Friday, I had my day all planned out. I had a to-do list that included a lot of work, a few chores, and a yoga class (because I'm much more productive if I make time to take care of my body and my mind). But on Thursday afternoon, I found out my daughter wouldn't be able to go to school on Friday due to a Covid exposure in her classroom. Surprise! My Friday to-do list went out the window.

Instead of spending the morning at my desk, I was here:

That's my kiddo playing under a giant, magical tree at Green-Wood Cemetery. We spent so much time at Green-Wood during the initial lockdown phase of the pandemic, when we were desperate to be outside but were still afraid of being around other people. These days, we don't visit Green-Wood out of desperation, but because it's a lovely place to hang out—especially when you're waiting for your kiddo's Covid test results. (She was negative, for those concerned!)

But back to my routine: last Friday, I had to abandon it, just as I have so many times over the past couple years—and just as I had to do many times well before Covid, whenever my daughter was sick or we couldn't get childcare. No matter how much I love a good routine, sometimes the universe has other plans.

Writers love to talk about the rituals that get their creative juices flowing. Sitting at this particular table at this particular coffee shop. Listening to the same album or playlist or song over and over. Wearing the right fingerless gloves or soft t-shirt or comfy pants or cozy hat. I used to have favorite writing cafés and preferred times of day to work, and I definitely spent time crafting the perfect playlist for each of my YA novels. I was a full-time freelancer, so my schedule was entirely of my own making. Write all morning; take a dance class in the early afternoon; head to a Starbucks to finish the day's freelance work before my husband left his office to meet me for dinner.

When my child was an infant, the routine shifted around her naptimes. "Sleep when the baby sleeps," people like to say. Well, when she slept, I tried to write. ("Tried" being the operative word, as any exhausted new mom will attest...) My café was my own kitchen, and my soundtrack was her white-noise machine and the soft sounds she made as she dozed. If she wouldn't nap at home, I'd have to take an hour-and-a-half-long walk, pushing the stroller around the Prospect Park loop, iced coffee in hand. I'd try to think about my creative projects (again, "try" is the key here) but some days all I could do was focus on putting one foot in front of the other.

And then we had childcare two mornings a week. And then it was three mornings. And then three "school days" (our nanny would leave us at 2:30 to pick up an older child from school). Those hours were, for the most part, mine again. For over a year, I was able to build a pretty reliable routine for myself.

And then there was a pandemic, and that hard-won routine vanished completely, for months.

Parents have to be flexible, especially nowadays. As counter-intuitive as it may seem, flexibility isn't always easy for people who do creative work. I've had to learn the skill (and it is a skill!) of sitting down at my computer and getting straight to the task at hand, because I never know if the time I've mapped out for myself later on will still be mine. I can't leave breadcrumbs—the perfect playlist and the perfect coffee shop and the perfect moment—for the muse and wait around for her to show up. I have to dive right in, and if I'm not feeling inspired by one project, I may have to move on to the next to-do on my list. I have deadlines to meet and much less time than I used to have to meet them. I have to get things done.

Of course, there are still moments to refill the well. There are neighborhood walks and dance classes and yoga classes and lunches with friends. There are books to read and shows to watch—stories to consume. But sometimes, the long walk in the park I'd been anticipating becomes a 10-minute stroll before picking up my daughter from school. Coffee dates with friends (many of whom have kids of their own) get postponed. Routines shift. Plans change.

I'm not always happy when it happens, but I'm getting better at adapting. I have no choice. Creativity is a muscle, not a magic wand.

Luckily, inspiration can strike anytime, anywhere, with or without routines and rituals. You just have to keep your eyes and ears and mind open.

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Those coffee/meal get-togethers I mentioned above? Many of them are with friends who are also both parents and creators. Thus, we often end up talking about our kids and our work. Sometimes, kids and work are separate topics, but frequently, they intersect.

As I continue to think about what I want to do with this newsletter, I'm constantly assessing what I like to talk about and what I like to hear other people talk about. One thing I love is hearing how fellow creative folks—especially fellow parents—balance everything. I also love to hear how they are inspired and challenged by their kids. So, I'm launching an interview series this summer in which I ask several of my creative/parent friends the same three questions. Why only three? Well, like all working parents, their lives are busy. (Especially during summer vacation...)

I'm calling the series "Creating While Parenting," and it will kick off next Friday, June 10. You'll receive these brief interviews every other Friday, in the "off weeks" between my regular newsletters (like this one). I hope you'll enjoy hearing from my talented friends!

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What I'm:

Reading: Emily X.R. Pan's second YA novel, An Arrow to the Moon. It's a retelling of Chinese mythology meets a Romeo and Juliet story, about Chinese-American teens from feuding families whose paths cross in increasingly supernatural ways. I've known Emily for many years, and she is such a brilliant writer (not to mention a lovely human being!). If you're a fan of lyrical, fantastical YA, don't miss her work.

Watching: "Obi-Wan Kenobi" on Disney+! (Ahhh Vader!!) Also, my husband and I decided to rewatch all of "Stranger Things" before diving into the new season; we're about to finish up season 1. Those "Stranger Things" kiddos used to be so little...

Listening to: Assorted writing-related podcasts. I've never been a podcast person, but I'm trying to broaden my horizons. (I also would love to be a guest on some, so if you know anyone looking for writers/creatives to talk about their process, count me in!) So far, I have enjoyed episodes from Mindy McGinnis's "Writer, Writer, Pants on Fire" and Marissa Meyer's "The Happy Writer."

Loving: Raising an almost-five-year-old! This is such a fun age. She is silly, enthusiastic about everything, a sponge when it comes to learning new facts and skills, and so very confident in her own abilities. Here she is "milking a cow" at a petting farm we went to last weekend. ("I already know how to milk a cow," she told me. "My brother taught me.") (Her brother is imaginary.) (Also, he's Batman...) (Yes, Batman is my daughter's imaginary sibling-friend...)

Real Talk on Research

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On my Instagram this month, I've been sharing Reels with fun facts about painted turtles and dachshunds. Why? Partly to continue spreading the word about the Class Critters series...and partly because I'm the kind of nerd who finds fun facts to be really cool.

One of my favorite parts of writing the Class Critters books has been researching the various animals the kids turn into. I didn't know much about painted turtles or dachshunds or house mice before I began writing Tally and David and Madison's stories. And the thing is, when the kids in Mrs. Norrell's class turn into animals, they really become those animals. So, in order to flesh out each character's adventure, I needed to know what those animals' days might actually be like. How do they move? What do they eat? What endangers them? How do their senses influence how they experience the world?

Without my research, I might not have the scene in Tally Tuttle Turns into a Turtle where Tally eats—and enjoys!—bugs. Without my research, I wouldn't have known that dogs aren't completely colorblind—they can see blues and yellows, while oranges, reds, and greens are rendered as shades of gray. (In the chapter where David Dixon breaks into the cafeteria kitchen, he discovers some very unappetizing-looking fruits and vegetables...) And without my research, I wouldn't have learned that mice can squeeze their bodies through any hole that's big enough for their skull. That certainly affects how Madison Morris moves through the school building on her day as a mouse!

Honestly, research is one of my favorite parts of the writing process. Research can deepen a moment or characterization. It can open up new paths for the story to take. It can inspire new ideas. It can also verify that ideas I've already had are plausible (and let me tell you, that validation is particularly satisfying).

Research doesn't just mean reading books or going down a Google rabbit hole—though of course it can be and often is those things! But I also love doing interviews with experts in various fields. Going back and forth with someone on the phone or in an email thread is so much more inspiring to my author-brain than just seeing a fact written out on a page.

For The Distance Between Lost and Found, I was able to interview the Chief Ranger of the Great Smoky Mountains National Park. He helped me determine how it would be possible for my characters to stay lost in the mountains for as long as the story needed them to be lost. I asked questions about the terrain and the vegetation at the time of year the book takes place. He also explained search-and-rescue procedures—the many things that would be happening outside my characters' point-of-view. The ranger even suggested a crucial moment early in the story, in which my characters take a tumble into a rhododendron thicket; that fall from the path is what gets them properly lost.

For How it Feels to Fly, I turned to a dance psychologist I'd interviewed previously in my work as a dance journalist. As I crafted Perform at Your Peak, the summer camp where my main character goes to deal with her anxiety issues, I checked in with this psychologist about what would and would not be recommended or allowed in an inpatient-style therapy setting. I asked her about how a teenaged ballet dancer with body-image and anxiety issues such as the ones my character faced would be counseled. Her thoughts, as well as the advice she'd given when I'd interviewed her for magazine articles on similar topics in the past, helped me make both Perform at Your Peak and my protagonist's emotional journey authentic.

And remember two weeks ago, when I said that I had something new on the horizon that I hoped to be able to tell you about soon? Well, I still can't say much, but I did a fun and useful research interview while writing that book as well. I was able to speak to a soil researcher from Cornell University about various tests that might be done to determine soil health...in the event of, say, a crop circle formation at a large corn and wheat farm. (That's your teaser for this newsletter: the new book involves crop circles!)

Research can be an intimidating word. It can conjure up dark, quiet libraries and stacks of thick books. Now, I personally like the sound of a dark, quiet library and a stack of thick books, but I know that's not for everyone! So, when I talk to students, I try to show them that research doesn't have to be scary. It simply means that when you don't know something, you either ask someone who does, or you look it up. It's about taking the time to learn something new.

In a virtual school visit this past Tuesday, a second-grade teacher asked me, "What would your advice be for our students?" It's a broad question, but at the same time, a fairly easy one to answer.

My advice was, "Stay curious."

I was Zooming with five classes at the same time, so chances are, at least one kid out of the bunch harbors dreams of becoming a writer. I went on to talk a bit about how curiosity helps me come up with ideas and tell stories. That said, curiosity is a quality that will serve those students well no matter what they end up pursuing in the future.

Kids are naturally curious. My daughter's most-used word right now is probably "Why?" Adults, on the other hand, may feel too stubborn or embarrassed to ask or investigate when they don't know something. Or they may feel like they already know enough about the world. They may even resent not knowing. (I wrote "they," but let's be real: aren't we all like this about certain things and at certain times? I know I can be...)

Loving fun facts—like the fact that dachshunds have 125 million scent receptors in their nose as compared to humans' 5 or 6 million—makes me a nerd, yes...but it also helps me craft my stories. Being curious, and being willing to follow up on that curiosity by digging deeper, makes me a better writer. More thoughtful. More empathetic. More creative.

So, what are you curious about this week? And what kind of research are you going to do to learn more?

~Kathryn

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What I'm:

Reading: Sometimes, when I discover a romance author I like, I find myself requesting their whole catalog from the library! That's what happened this past week for me with author Kate Clayborn. I started with Love at First, which is about a woman who's incredibly attached to her dated apartment building and its quirky cast of characters and a man who, by inheriting a unit in the building from his estranged uncle, threatens to throw everything in her life out of balance. Now, I'm working my way through Clayborn's Luck series, a trio of books about three friends whose joint lottery win sets each of them on a path toward a new life and new love.

Watching: "Strange New Worlds," the latest new Star Trek show on Paramount+. I love the dynamic between Captain Christopher Pike (Anson Mount) and his Number One, Una (Rebecca Romijn), and it's fun to see younger, less self-assured versions of established original series characters like Spock and Uhura.

Listening to: I skipped Taylor Swift's Red when it came out in 2012, but lately I've been enjoying the new rerecorded album. That ten-minute version of "All Too Well" should really be called "All the Feels," amirite?

Loving: My daughter has been very snuggly lately. As in, she wants to be around me, preferably holding onto me, all the time. Sometimes, I want to say, "Stop leaning on me! Go do something else, somewhere else!" But I don't (unless she's got her elbow in my ribs...) because I know those snuggles won't last forever...

What Do You Do With an Idea?

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My daughter has a lovely picture book called What Do You Do With an Idea? It was a baby gift from a friend from college, a talented dancer and choreographer who is now a mom of two herself. In the book, written by Kobi Yamada, the narrator suddenly has an idea—drawn by illustrator Mae Besom as a golden egg, with legs, wearing a crown.

At first, the child tries to walk away...but the idea follows. It grows, especially once it is nurtured: fed and played with and given a house, "one with an open roof where it could look up at the stars—a place where it could be safe to dream." Eventually, the idea hatches and flies into the sky. Now, it belongs not only to the child who conceived it, but to everyone. "I realized what you do with an idea..." the narrator finishes. "You change the world."

As someone with a new book out last month, I certainly relate to the feeling of holding an idea close for so long and then finally letting it fly free. It's strange and gratifying and terrifying and wonderful to have people read a story that I dreamed up and carefully crafted and kept to myself (and my editor) for so long. Perhaps David Dixon's Day as a Dachshund isn't world-changing literature...but it could matter to the right kid at the right time. That's huge.

And yet, in this moment, I'm relating even harder to the part of the story where the child has a brand-new idea and they don't know what to do with it. They don't know if it's any good. They don't know what people will think of it. They can't see its potential.

With my first finished novel, I saw nothing but potential. It was my grad school thesis, a young adult fantasy about magical subway trains in NYC. I grabbed onto this idea with both hands and held on for dear life as it careened down the tracks toward what I was sure was an inevitable destination: a book deal. (And then awards and movies and merchandise; pre-publication writers are big-time dreamers.) I completed the book. I revised it. I queried agents. I was rejected. Eventually, I realized the book worked better as a middle-grade, so I rewrote it with a younger protagonist and queried agents again. I was rejected again. I did more revisions. And round and round and round...

Until one day—after more than three years of working on this same book, growing more and more frantic and certain I'd wasted my time and money getting an MFA—I got a new idea.

When it arrived, it was nothing more than a seed. A germ. A tiny golden egg balanced on twig-like legs, wearing a crown.

The idea was this: a 16-year-old girl named Hallelujah Calhoun.

I was still revising the magical subway book, but this new idea grew in the background. It asked questions: Who was this girl? Why was she named Hallelujah? What did she need to have happen to her in order to become who she was meant to be? By the time I set the subway book aside, I was desperate to write about Hallelujah, and I first-drafted feverishly. I didn't know what people would think of this new book—a realistic survival story that also explored identity and faith; so different from what I'd been writing before—but I knew I had something.

Spoiler alert: that something became my debut, The Distance Between Lost and Found.

Ideas don't all become something—especially in an industry like publishing, where believing in a book with your entire soul doesn't mean it will ever find its audience. After my second book came out, I went back to the magical subway book and did a from-scratch rewrite with my literary agent, transforming it into a broader magical NYC story. It still didn't sell. I also poured my heart into a YA ghost story set in Venice, Italy, about sisterhood and grief and first love and forgiveness...and it didn't sell. Unless I decide to self-publish down the line, it's unlikely either of these stories will ever be widely read. Their golden eggs may never hatch.

Does that mean the time I spent nurturing them was wasted? Of course not!

It hurt when those books I loved didn't find a publishing home. It absolutely hurt. That said, those two "drawer books" (a.k.a. manuscripts I have now filed away in a metaphorical drawer) made me a better writer. Those ideas nourished my imagination and my creativity. They each challenged me in new ways. They also paved the path to new projects: certainly some of the fun magic of the subway book made its way into the Class Critters series (as well as something else I'm very excited to tell you more about soon). I may not have made it to where I am today without writing those two unsold books.

So, what do you do with an idea? You change the world, sure.

But also, you change yourself.

Nurturing your creativity (even without external validation or rewards), trusting your instincts, tuning out dissenting voices that aren't helpful to you, marinating in possibility, paying attention to what piques your interest, what gets you feeling inspired...all of that has value, whether you are a writer or a dancer/choreographer or a visual artist or not in a creative field at all. That's why, as my daughter grows, What Do You Do With an Idea? will stay on her bookshelf.

Many paragraphs ago, I said I could relate to the child's uncertainty at the start of the story. Why is that? Well, where I am right now in my writing journey, most of what I'm working on is quite far along in its growth and development. The third Class Critters book has been sent to print, and I'm waiting to hear if the publisher will accept proposals for more. (Even if they do, the concept and ideas are already fleshed out, so I'm not starting from scratch.) The "something else I'm excited to tell you about soon" I mentioned above has been in the works for years. I have another manuscript that I've also been working on for years, between other projects, and it's finally coming into focus. The only new ideas I'm having right now are for picture books; if there's another novel inside me, I don't yet know what it's going to be.

That's scary. But maybe it's also exciting? All I know is, I'm trying to stay open, so that when the next idea arrives—when that little golden egg with spindly legs and a crown poofs into existence and starts following me around—I'm ready.

What I'm:

Reading: I bought Emily Henry's newest rom-com, Book Lovers, on Tuesday—its release day. I'd finished it by lunchtime on Wednesday. Book Lovers is about two NYC publishing rivals, a sharklike literary agent and a hard-to-impress editor, falling for each other in his small North Carolina hometown. If you love smart, emotional, funny, swoony books, don't hesitate to pick this one up.

Writing: An alphabet-themed picture book! Also, I just turned in a Dance Magazine article about fostering an emotionally healthy approach to competition; you'll be able to read that in August.

Watching: "Magic for Humans" on Netflix. (If you saw "magic" and wanted to run away screaming...hear me out.) The magician is Justin Willman, who also hosts a bunch of competitive baking shows ("Cupcake Wars," "Baking Impossible"). In this series, he does close-up magic tricks for regular folks all over Los Angeles. Some of the illusions are truly astonishing—as in, they made my 40-year-old husband squeal with delight. A great comfort-watch.

Playing: Two Dots on my phone. I'd weaned myself off it for a while, but now I'm firmly back on the Two Dots train. Level 3437 (as of this writing), baby!

Loving: My daughter's bug obsession. She received a "bug collection" from my parents for Christmas and is currently enamored of digging for worms in the damp springtime playground dirt. (Also, if you have a bug-loving kiddo, I must recommend Elise Gravel's adorable nonfiction picture book series about creepy-crawlies! So far, we've read The Spider, The Worm, Head Lice, and The Mosquito...)

Life After (Book) Launch

This post was originally sent through my author newsletter on April 22, 2022. To subscribe to my newsletter and receive up-to-date news, musings, and more, use the form on my homepage: KathrynHolmes.com.

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Hi, and welcome to my first official newsletter!

You probably already know that I just released a new book. David Dixon’s Day as a Dachshund has now been out on shelves for a week and a half! Which is so exciting! I've been hearing from people that they and their kids are enjoying it, and honestly, that positive feedback is exhilarating. Publishing a book is like sending a little piece of my soul out into the universe. Sometimes it's scary—will people like it? Will anyone even read it?—but it's always a rush.

But what happens after the new-book-release endorphins start to fade?

Have you ever planned a dream vacation and looked forward to it for weeks and had a wonderful time...and then found it hard or even painful to get back to "real life"? The letdown after a book release is kind of like that. (Except, well, no one is reviewing your vacation online or judging how it went to decide whether you'll ever be allowed to go on another vacation in the future...)

Releasing a book takes so much work. It involves months of preparation and anticipation. A big promotional push. Expectations run high (even when you try to keep them moderated). The big day usually involves a ton of social media celebration. You stop by some bookstores, you sign some books, you take some photos. You've accomplished something pretty amazing, and it's important to recognize that.

But pretty quickly after launch, that excitement starts to fade. At least for me, the anxiety rushes back in. The pure promise of an unreleased manuscript is replaced by reviews and sales numbers and worries about who's posting about the new book and who isn't and what if, what if, what if.

Which means it's time to focus on what's next.

Over the years, I've found that the best way to stay sane as a writer is to keep my gaze facing forward. There has to be something on the horizon, whether that's the next book due to be published or a first draft of an idea I can't wait to delve into. The latter—the act of writing, the work itself—is always home base. I can't control how my books are received, but I can control what I put on the page. I can control the story, the language, the characters.

Right now, I do have another published book to anticipate this year: Madison Morris is NOT a Mouse!, Class Critters book three, releases August 16th. That day will be here in a flash.

But I've also got new irons in the fire. A few middle-grade (ages 8-12) manuscripts at various stages of revision and submission. Some picture book drafts, as well as an assortment of picture book ideas that aren't yet fleshed out enough to become drafts. A proposal for more Class Critters books, should my publisher express an interest in expanding the series. I've even toyed around with writing with an adult rom-com!

It's harder to get sucked down into the post-launch doldrums if I'm always tinkering, always thinking, always dreaming—always looking ahead.

This newsletter is another of those new irons in the fire.

I used to blog regularly, on my own website and elsewhere. I enjoyed sharing musings on the writing process, updates on my life and my pursuit of publication, and thoughts on books I was reading and other media I was watching/listening to/etc. I liked putting something out there that was longer and meatier than a Tweet or an Instagram caption. I liked connecting with people in a more meaningful way than social media can often provide.

It was fairly easy to make time for blogging...until I became a parent. (The very last entry on my blog was from 2018, when my daughter was about 16 months old; in it, I apologized for not having posted in over a year!) These days, with books to write and books to promote and freelance work to tackle and a four-year-old to wrangle and an apartment that occasionally needs cleaning, I can't imagine writing long and thoughtful blog posts multiple times a week. The hours simply aren't there. (Or maybe the hours are there, and my energy and willpower are what's missing...)

But a newsletter every other week? That's something I can make happen. It's something I will make happen. I hope you'll come along on this journey with me. I plan to write about all those things I blogged about, back in the day—writing and reading and creating and dancing and dreaming—and more, because my life isn't the same as it once was. I want to share how my creative process and my work routine have changed now that I'm a parent. I want to talk about raising a young reader and the books that we enjoy together. In short, I want to have a dedicated space to muse about my little corner of the world and how it relates to yours.

As a newsletter subscriber, you'll also get to enjoy sneak peeks of upcoming books, behind-the-scenes glimpses into my work, and exclusive giveaways. You might even be the first to hear good news. (This is where you cross your fingers for me that I have some good news to share in the months ahead!)

If you like reading about something and want more of it, definitely let me know. If there's something you wish I would talk about, feel free to tell me that as well. Let's build this new thing together.

~Kathryn

What I'm...

Reading: I just finished Alone in the Woods by Rebecca Behrens. This middle-grade survival story is about two 12-year-olds whose best-friendship is on shaky ground. But when they get lost in the Wisconsin mountains, they have to depend on each other to make it home. This one is perfect for fans of The Distance Between Lost and Found!

Watching: My husband and I are currently watching the first season of Severance on AppleTV+. It's a sci-fi show in which people can choose to have their work life "severed" from their home life, leaving each persona clueless as to what the other is up to. Creepy, intriguing stuff!

Eating: Sadly, I am almost out of Cadbury Mini Eggs, a.k.a. the best candy of the whole year...

Dreaming of: Spring! And it should be here soon!

Loving: My daughter's carefree confidence as she dances through the world.

Watch This Space for News!

Hi, friends. It’s been… well, according to the date of the entry below this one, I haven’t written a new blog post in over a year! Yikes.

As you might have guessed, writing and editing books, and doing lots of freelance writing, while also being an almost full-time mom…doesn’t leave a lot of time for blogging. That’s why I’ve decided to convert this page to a News space, instead. If there’s something exciting happening in my world, or if I’ve got something coming up that you should know about, you’ll find a post about it here!

For example, I’m performing in a dance concert in a week and a half, for choreographer Diane McCarthy and alongside many wonderful friends from my NYC dance community. I was asked to join this project back in May, when another dancer had to step out of the cast, and it has been a blast rehearsing (and getting back into performing shape post-baby!). If you’re local to NYC, I’d love to see your smiling face in the audience! The show is November 9, 10, and 11, and tickets are available HERE.

In other news…today is Halloween! And although this will definitely be a more professional space going forward, I can’t resist sharing a photo of my adorable baby dressed up as Supergirl. I hope your Halloween is similarly super!

~Kathryn

Greetings From Baby-Land!

*taps microphone* 

Hello? Is anyone out there? 

I know I haven't been around in a while (*cough* about four months *cough*), but I hope I still have a few people interested in reading along... 

Long story short: I have vanished, happily, into Baby-Land. My daughter is an absolute joy. (She doesn't really sleep that much—which isn't ideal, to say the least—but at least she's pretty happy most of the time she's awake!) It's been an adjustment, going from almost-full-time writer to almost-full-time mom trying to squeeze in writing time around naps and babysitting hours, but I'm slowly figuring things out. 

On the writing front, about a month ago I was able to complete the latest revision of the middle-grade novel rewrite I've been working on for about a year. Turning a polished draft in to my agent in September felt like such a milestone! While I wait to hear her thoughts, I've been percolating...*drum roll*...a new idea! I've mentioned before on here that new ideas—ones that could actually become a decent book, I mean—are rare for me. I often know what I want to work on right after the book I'm currently writing or revising, but can't see much farther into the future. So, every time I get excited about brainstorming something fresh, it's a big deal. Not going to share details about this new project yet, but rest assured: it has POTENTIAL. :D 

I also used to review books on this blog. Sad to say, I'm not reading as much as I once did. It's partly a matter of time, and it's partly a matter of sleep-deprivation making it hard to focus. BUT! I have to shout out a few recent reads: I adored Courtney Stevens' DRESS CODES FOR SMALL TOWNS, Mackenzi Lee's THE GENTLEMAN'S GUIDE TO VICE AND VIRTUE, and Adam Silvera's THEY BOTH DIE AT THE END. Currently, I'm working my way through a tome on baby sleep (HEALTHY SLEEP HABITS, HAPPY CHILD), but the next fiction work in my TBR stack is Brittany Cavallaro's A STUDY IN CHARLOTTE, which comes highly recommended by my sister and fellow avid-kidlit-reader, Mary-Owen. 

And...that's me these days! A lot of baby-time, a bit of writing, a bit of reading. And maybe, in the coming months, a bit of forward momentum in publishing-world? Cross your fingers for me! 

How's everyone's fall going? 

~Kathryn 

Motivation Vs. Vacation

A version of this post originally appeared on the YA Buccaneers group blog. 

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I don't know about you, but I always find it difficult to feel motivated to work in mid-August. Maybe it's the heat. Maybe it's that perpetual almost-back-to-school feeling. Maybe it's everyone's beachy photos on social media. Maybe it's the fact that I'll soon be at the beach myself. 

[Note: this post is from 2016, but we will in fact be beaching again, little person in tow, in a few weeks! Just you wait for the baby swimsuit photos...sorry-not-sorry in advance. And for the record, while this summer has been a crash-course in new-parenthood, most summers I'm writing and promoting my work just as hard—if not harder!—than the rest of the year.] 

Whatever the case, there's no question that I could use a vacation. 

But here's the thing about being a writer, full-time or otherwise: it can be hard to let yourself take a vacation from the work. There's the sense of obligation—this book isn't going to write itself. There's how productive everyone else seems to be. There's the fear of missing out, of being left behind by writers who have more book deals and whose careers are progressing faster. And of course there's the guilt: if I'm not doing everything I can to help myself succeed, I'll have only myself to blame if I fail. 

Needing time off can feel like weakness. Taking a break can feel like quitting. 

So here's the reminder, for myself as much as for all of you who are in the trenches with me:

Rest is important. Vacations are important. Time spent not writing is important. 

But when should you indulge in time off? Deadlines permitting, I'd say...

1: When you finish a draft. 

After you type "The End," is your first instinct to scroll back to page one and start editing? What would happen if you saved and closed the document, instead? What if you spent the rest of the day lounging at the pool, or catching up on Netflix, or reading a book? 

Taking a few days or weeks away from a project when a draft is done isn't just good for your brain; it can also be good for the manuscript! Time off can give you the space and distance you need to assess your work more clearly. You might pick up on plot holes, character inconsistencies, and even typos that you'd miss if you dove back in without pausing to catch your breath.  

2: When you send out or turn in a draft. 

When you send a manuscript to your editor, your agent, or beta readers/critique partners, you probably aren't going to immediately start tinkering with it. But what about those other projects that have been waiting patiently for your attention? Should you shift gears right away? 

Your mileage may vary, but I've found that this is one of the best times to take a brief writing hiatus. When I sent a YA WIP off to my agent last July, I'd planned to jump right into the MG fantasy rewrite I'd been anxious about starting. But after two days of feeling paralyzed by the blank page, I realized I needed to give my brain an actual break. I told myself, You'll start the MG on Monday morning. Then I devoted some time to all of the things that can fall by the wayside during intense revision periods. I took on some additional freelance work. I cleaned the apartment. I cooked some delicious meals for myself and my husband. I took extra yoga and dance classes. 

I went a week without creative writing, and it didn't kill me. In fact, when I opened the MG document again, I felt refreshed and was able to hit the ground running. 

3: When you're hitting your head against the wall. 

I'm a firm believer in "the only way out is through." Most of the time, when I'm stuck on a chapter or scene, I'll find a way to get something down on the page. I'll jump ahead a few scenes. I'll sketch an outline that has actions but no emotions, or vice versa. But what about those times when forward progress feels completely impossible? 

This is, I think, when it's hardest to step away from the computer. The stubbornness kicks in. You don't want to let the manuscript defeat you, even if writing is like squeezing blood from a stone. 

So...make yourself take a break. Walk around the neighborhood. Do dishes. Work out. And if your head doesn't feel clearer in an hour, give yourself the rest of the day. Or a couple of days. That stumbling block will still be there when you return—and with any luck, the time off will help it look less like a mountain you can't climb and more like a stepping stone you can use to reach the next level. 

What about you? When do you find it best to take a step back from your writing? How do you find the balance between staying motivated and giving yourself permission to let go? Chime in in the comments! 

Enjoy the rest of your summer!

~Kathryn 

Up For a Hometown Adventure?

A version of this post originally appeared on the YA Buccaneers group blog. 

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When my husband and I first met in 2009, I was writing a manuscript set in New York City—primarily in and around the subway system. The first summer we were dating, I convinced him to go on several research trips with me. We visited the NYC Transit Museum. We rode the A train all the way out to Far Rockaway, across Jamaica Bay to a beachy strip of land you can hardly believe is still part of NYC. We even toured the Atlantic Avenue Tunnel, an abandoned underground railway tunnel that is unfortunately no longer open to the public. (We had to enter through a manhole in the middle of one of Brooklyn's busiest streets—best date ever, right?) 

Summer 2014 adventures, clockwise from top left: Coney Island, the Unisphere at the Queens World's Fair site, the U.S.S. Intrepid, and the top of the Empire State Building.

On those trips, I got the information I was looking for to enhance my manuscript. I learned more about the city I'd fallen head over heels with since moving here in 2004. But best of all, my husband and I started a tradition that has only grown over the past eight years. At the start of each summer, we come up with a list of "adventures" we want to go on together. We choose tourist attractions and unusual spaces within the five boroughs that we've never visited: museums, parks, monuments, skyscrapers, oddball hole-in-the-wall shops and restaurants, and much more. We've gone to the top of the Empire State Building; walked around the botanic gardens in Brooklyn, The Bronx, and Staten Island; ridden the roller coasters and eaten hot dogs (and watched the Mermaid Parade) at Coney Island; admired medieval art and tapestries at The Cloisters; taken walking tours of Manhattan's Lower East Side and the Financial District; visited the historic Tenement Museum and the U.S.S Intrepid—the list goes on and on. 

This summer, things are a little different: there's a third person to take into account, and she's not quite ready to adventure alongside us just yet! But for the past few months, I've been rewriting the same magical NYC manuscript that started this whole thing, so there are definitely adventures on the horizon. I'm ready to strap on my baby-wrap and explore this fantastic city, with the two people I love most by my side.  

Here's my dare to you: Go on an adventure in your hometown or local region. Is there a museum or historical site in your area that you've been meaning to check out? Find the time. Have you heard about a beautiful nature trail in a nearby national park? Strap on your hiking boots. Don't let the day-to-day routine of living somewhere keep you from discovering everything that's unusual and fascinating and magical about your home. Go on an adventure. If you're a writer or other type of creator, you can't help but be inspired. And even if you're not, you're in for a fascinating experience.  

Tell me about the hometown adventure you want to take—or one you recently took—in the comments! While I'm home taking care of my newborn, I'll live vicariously through you!

Have fun...

~Kathryn  

Quieting Your Inner Editor

A version of this post originally appeared on the YA Buccaneers group blog. 

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Have you ever started a first draft and gotten stuck revising (and revising…and revising…) 30 pages in? This post is for you—and it’s for me.

Hi, I’m Kathryn, and I sometimes have a problem with my Inner Editor.

A little background: When I started seriously trying to write a book, I was coming out of several years as a full-time magazine writer and editor. I still write articles in a freelance capacity. For short-form writing (and obviously for copyediting), my Inner Editor is a huge asset. It (she?) helps me quickly turn out polished, professional prose. But writing books is, well, another story. 

I worked on my first novel through most of grad school, and because I didn’t really know any other way to write, I approached the drafting process in small chunks. I’d polish and polish each chapter or section, and only when I was completely happy with it would I move on. (The writing workshop structure didn’t help in this regard, since I had to submit 20ish pages every few weeks.) It’s not that I wasn’t making forward progress. I was! I was actually writing a book! But wow, was I drafting slowly. Not to mention the fact that I got to the climactic scene near the end only to realize—whoops!—I didn’t have a bad guy. And this was the kind of book that required a bad guy.

I’d spent so much time on the individual trees that I’d lost track of the forest.

Fast forward a few years (and a few revisions and querying cycles with that manuscript). When I started my next book—which became THE DISTANCE BETWEEN LOST AND FOUND—I took a different approach from the get-go. I wanted to draft fast. I wanted a sense of urgency and momentum in the plot from Draft One, even knowing that I’d have holes and character inconsistencies and yeah, probably some terrible sentences and clunky dialogue. I started writing in May 2012 and had a finished draft by the end of July. It was a mess—but I was so proud. (And then the real work began…but that’s another conversation for another post!)

How did I pull it off? A big piece of the puzzle was quieting that Inner Editor that wanted everything to be perfect before I moved on. Here are some Inner Editor–quieting** tactics that worked for me. Maybe they'll work for you!

**Note: “Quiet,” not “kill”—I don’t advocate violence toward your Inner Editor! You need him/her!

READ BACK TO WRITE FORWARD

When drafting, I try to start each writing session by reading over the last few pages I wrote. Reading—not editing. (Or trying not to…) That puts me in the right headspace to move forward. Not only does knowing where I am help me know what I need to write next, rereading what’s there also lets me jump into the voice and writing style more smoothly than if I just sat down and started hammering away at my keyboard. The more “in” the story I am, the less likely I am to get caught up tinkering on the sentence level.  

MAKE NOTES, NOT EDITS

Obviously, as you write forward and continue to solidify the plot/characters in your head, you’ll realize that changes need to be made to what you’ve already done. But do you have to make those changes now? Sometimes you do; writing out a new scene to reflect a change can be just what you need to move forward. But in other cases, you can give yourself and your Inner Editor peace of mind by simply going back and adding a note. My early drafts are peppered with comments to deal with later. “Why exactly is she mad at him in this scene?” (I know they have to fight; I’ve written the fight; I’ll figure out the motivation later.) “From this page on, she plays tennis, not soccer.” (I can change all prior mentions of my character being a soccer player in Draft 2.) “Does anyone still use this word?” (My Inner Editor has a friend, the Inner Researcher, who would rather spend hours looking up minutiae online than write the scene with a placeholder.)

What I keep telling myself in this phase is, it’s not that I’m ignoring the problems. I’m acknowledging them, jotting down a detailed reminder or question to myself, and then going back to today’s task: writing forward.

LET IT GO—FOR NOW

This is hard, because this is the mental part of the equation: realizing that it’s okay for your draft to be messy, or inconsistent, or to just plain suck. I don’t like rereading something I wrote, even in a first draft, and feeling like it’s not good. I doubt anyone does. Sometimes it's a struggle to trust that I'll be able to fix problems down the road. So I have to turn to other writers for inspiration: 

"IF I WAITED FOR PERFECTION, I WOULD NEVER WRITE A WORD."

—MARGARET ATWOOD

"ALMOST ALL GOOD WRITING BEGINS WITH TERRIBLE FIRST EFFORTS. 
YOU NEED TO START SOMEWHERE."

—ANNE LAMOTT

"YOU MIGHT NOT WRITE WELL EVERY DAY, BUT YOU CAN ALWAYS EDIT A BAD PAGE.
YOU CAN'T EDIT A BLANK PAGE." 

—JODI PICOULT

Are you a champion first-drafter? What do you do to keep your Inner Editor at bay? Share your suggestions in the comments! 

~Kathryn

It's the Final Countdown...

Did your brain immediately add "Da-da-da-da...da-da-da-da-da!" to the title of this post? Mine did. (If that question made no sense to you, Google "Final Countdown" by Europe to hear what I'm talking about.) 

Anyway, I am officially just over three weeks away from this baby's due date! Seriously—my husband and I are about to be parents. 

I can't wait. :) 

Here's me and the Bump at 33 weeks. I'm now approaching 37 weeks, so add a couple inches to this photo! o_0

But wait we must! So during this final, oh-so-long month, I've been busy catching up and getting ahead. I've got the rest of my pre-parenting to-do list: Pack my hospital bag! Cook and freeze meals for later! Send thank-you notes to all of the wonderful people who've bought our little girl gifts! Organize her clothes dresser, and figure out where to store all those bibs and burp cloths! (Fitting a baby into a Brooklyn one-bedroom is no joke...) 

Meanwhile, I've also been filing my last few freelance assignments before I take a newborn hiatus—as of today, I only have one article revision left on my plate. And then there's that middle-grade book manuscript I've been toiling away on for the past eight-or-so months. I sent the third(ish?) draft to my agent two weeks ago, and I'm waiting with bated breath to find out if she likes what I did to it, based on her prior notes. The hope is that her comments at this point will be minimal, and that I can tackle any further edits before June 18, a.k.a. Due-Date Day—or before the baby decides to show up, whichever comes first. Cross your fingers for me... 

Life is about to change, big-time. I've done my best to be prepared, but I know nothing will ever truly make me ready to hold my daughter for the first time—or to handle all of the firsts that will follow. It's going to be a crazy summer. Wish me and my husband luck! 

(Oh, and as far as the blog goes: there are more prescheduled YA Buccaneers–recycled posts coming your way, but otherwise I have no idea what else I'll have time or energy to post. If you really want updates, probably best to follow me on Twitter or Instagram!) 

See you on the other side of parenthood... :)

~Kathryn 

Don't Let Laziness Win!

A version of this post originally appeared on the YA Buccaneers group blog. 

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Today, I wanted to share something a yoga teacher shared with me. He was talking about yoga practice, but as I was listening to him, I couldn’t help thinking about how applicable his words were to my writing practice, as well. His topic? Avoiding laziness.

Lazy. It’s not a very nice word. None of us wants to think of ourselves as lazy—especially not when it comes to our writing goals! But the way my teacher was talking about it, it was less of a pejorative and more of an obstacle we all have to overcome as we strive to improve. He brought up three types of laziness that can get in the way of a good yoga practice—or writing practice, since that’s what we’re all about here! 

LAZINESS #1: SLOTH

This is the most obvious form of laziness—not mustering the energy or the motivation to get things done. Sitting on the couch watching Netflix instead of writing or revising. Taking a nap during scheduled work time. Is there anything inherently wrong with needing downtime? Of course not. But if sloth is keeping us from meeting our goals, we might need to reassess how hard we’re willing to push ourselves.  

LAZINESS #2: MISMANAGED TIME

Those of us who are crazy-busy all the time couldn’t possibly be lazy, right? The only reason we aren’t writing as much as we should be is because we simply don’t have enough time. But how much of each busy day is devoted to necessary tasks, and how much to activities that are frivolous? Could we write instead of watching mindless TV or going to yet another happy hour? Could writing be squeezed into a lunch break? Battling this form of laziness is all about setting priorities—if writing is important, we shouldn’t let it be overshadowed by activities that aren’t.

LAZINESS #3: DISCOURAGEMENT

I think writers can relate to this one even more than aspiring yogis. After all, having a hard time achieving a certain yoga pose isn’t quite the same as putting yourself and your writing out there and getting crushing feedback, or dozens of rejections, or bad reviews on a published work. Being a writer can be discouraging, and we all have to learn to cope with the difficult times—and celebrate the successes. So where does laziness factor in? Every time we avoid writing because “No agent will ever want to work with me, anyway,” or because “I’ll never figure out this tough scene, so why bother?” When we let discouragement keep us from trying, that’s a problem.

I left that yoga class truly inspired to work harder. To push the things that should be priorities in my life (including writing, but not only writing!) to their rightful place in my busy schedule. To write even when I’m feeling frustrated or discouraged about my progress. And the more I thought about my teacher’s words, the more I wanted to share them with my fellow writers! I hope thinking about laziness in a new way is as helpful to you as it was to me. 

After all, what's the first rule of writing? Butt in chair.

Now I'm going to take my own advice and get to work. :)

~Kathryn

Do You Read Like a Writer?

A version of this post originally appeared on the YA Buccaneers group blog. 

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Has being a writer changed how you read? Do you look at words and sentences and plotlines and character arcs differently than you did when you simply read for pleasure?

(Two caveats up front: 1) Obviously, writers can and do and should read for pleasure! 2) I’m not necessarily talking about reading the way your English teachers made you read in high school, mining for symbolism and dissecting a book’s themes from a purely academic standpoint. Unless that’s your thing, in which case, have at it!)

I know that I tend to read differently now than I did before I got serious about my own writing. Reading is a form of inspiration. I look at authors who do such incredible things with words and I want to be like them. It’s also a form of continuing education. I’m constantly on the lookout for that “master class” moment, where an author shows me exactly how something should be done.

How does that play out in my writing life? Here’s an example. With my current manuscript [note: this book became HOW IT FEELS TO FLY], I’ve been struggling with my protagonist’s emotional stakes. The highs haven’t felt high enough and the lows haven’t felt low enough. In layman’s terms, there weren’t enough feels. So I decided to reread Lovely, Dark and Deep by Amy McNamara. This book killed me—in a good way—when I first read it. I felt a deep ache in my chest for the main character, Wren, and her emotional struggles. I cried.

The plot of Lovely, Dark and Deep is nothing like the plot of my current manuscript, but it has those deep emotional moments I felt like my project was missing. So I read it again, looking at how the emotions built to the climactic scenes. I saw how McNamara was often able to show more by withholding speech and action than if she’d filled the page with Wren’s anguish. I felt gutted all over again. And when I went back to my revision, I tried to apply what I’d learned.

The cool thing about this way of reading is that you don’t have to seek out “literature” to pick up writerly skills. If a book makes you laugh or cry, if you cheer for the heroine or swoon over the hero or want to cut off the villain’s head yourself—in short, if you had an honest emotional response to what was happening on the page—you can learn from it.

So here are my challenges to you: The next time you’re reading something—anything—and you think to yourself, Wow, I wish I could do X like this author, or I really admire how this author does Y, jot it down. Keep reading. Keep looking for clues. When you’ve finished enjoying the book, put on your critical thinking cap and start asking why whatever it was that you loved worked so well. Then, file that information away until you need it. I promise, you’ll be so happy when you’re dealing with an issue in your own writing and you realize exactly which of your favorite authors to turn to for advice.

Here’s the part where you jump in. What authors inspire you in specific, writerly ways? Do you read like this, looking for tricks of the trade and skills you can utilize in your own work? Do you have any advice to share that we can all put into practice? Let’s get a discussion going in the comments.

Meanwhile…happy reading! 

~Kathryn

Welcome to the Spring 2017 YA Scavenger Hunt!

It's time, once again, for the YA Scavenger Hunt! Are you ready to enter to win lots and lots of books? I thought so! Here's what you need to know: 

Somewhere in this blog post, I've hidden an important number. Collect all of the secret numbers of the authors on TEAM PINK and add them up. (Don't worry—you can use a calculator!) Then, fill out the entry form HERE. People who have the correct number will be entered to win a copy of every book from TEAM PINK! 

The contest is open internationally. Anyone below the age of 18 should have a parent or guardian’s permission to enter. To be eligible for the grand prize, you must submit the completed entry form by SUNDAY, APRIL 9, at noon Pacific Time. Entries sent without the correct number or without contact information will not be considered.

Find out more about the entire hunt—including what other authors/teams are participating—by visiting the YASH home page. 

Meet the Author!

This time around, I'm hosting Kim Briggs, author of the STARR FALL series. Kim once smashed into a tree while skiing. The accident led to a concussion, a cracked sternum, temporary notoriety as a sixth grader returned from the dead, and the realization that fictionalized accounts are way more interesting than just slipping on the ice.

An unhealthy obsession with conspiracy theories combined with a love of travel and happily ever afters led Kim to write her YA novel, Starr Fall, which released in November 2016. The second book in the series, Starr Lost, came out in January 2017, and Starr Gone is coming in June 2017—all with Inkspell Publishing. Kim's novella, Avalanche, is part of the Valentine Kisses Anthology and released February 14, 2017.

About Starr Fall: 

On the run from the Organization, Starr never planned on falling in love.

Starr Bishop's the complete package. A perfect smile, brains to match, and a winning attitude. Boys want to date her and girls want to be her. She's the type of girl you want to hate, if only she wasn't so damn likable. But don't worry, she's not interested in your boyfriend. Boys are one complication she can live without.

When the Organization decides she's not only the model student but also the ideal assassin, Starr'll need a lot more than high test scores and extracurricular involvement to get herself out of that commitment. Dark, moody, and dead sexy Christian Evergood is the last person she'd expect—or even want-to come to her rescue. From opposite ends of Webster High's social hierarchy, their lives collide in one electrifying moment. Christian isn't the Goth loner he pretends to be, he's a part Cherokee, All-American boy who wants to be a hero, Starr's hero. Christian makes Starr forget that the Organization is after her, but nothing will stop the Organization from collecting their top recruit.

By the way, the spot for junior class president just became available.

Bonus content: 

Kim's excited to share an excerpt from Book Two, Starr Lost! Enjoy... 

GOTH GIRL CORNED

CHAPTER NINE

Di

I tried to catch Frank by himself coming into school this morning but that was an epic fail. Between his harem of ex-girlfriends vying for another chance and Little Red attached to his arm, I’ll never catch him alone. Why did Christian ask for him anyway? Mr. Joe Cool Jock is the last person Christian would want to be friends with. Starr’s got to be with him.

I wonder how that’s going. Christian’s always acted as if Starr’s mission in life was to make his existence miserable. A vendetta of sorts. Then I told him what happened to her and he went all Superman.

Oh. My. God. There’s another one of those Jesus Freak grief counselors from that crazy new church in town. Between them and the pigs showing up at school and Beans, I can’t get a moment’s peace.

How the hell do I talk to Mr. Hollywood by himself? Someone like me can’t just go up to Webster’s royal court without violating at least a dozen archaic codes of social interaction, and today is one day I don’t want to draw unwanted attention. Whatever Christian and Starr got themselves into is freakishly colossal, and I won’t be the one to fuck it up.

I follow two basketball knuckle draggers down the hall. I’m almost to homeroom when they split ranks. One lumbers down the stairs to the dungeon—appropriate I know. The other cuts off toward the cafeteria—probably wants to eat a few freshmen in between classes.

Wait a second.

I stop in the middle of the hallway. One person makes the mistake of knocking into me. A claw swipe and a hiss sends the clumsy thumb sucker and the rest of Webster’s peons running for their lives.

I watch the knuckle dragger cut the breakfast line, and it gives me an idea. I rip a flyer off the wall and scribble a message on it. Just as I finish, Mr. Hollywood and Little Red stroll down the hall.

I shove the flyer in his free hand. “Hey, check out this band.”

He winks as he flashes his cheesy smile. I roll my eyes and walk away. We may be on opposite ends of Webster’s social hierarchy, but he never changes.

The morning drags on period after brutal period. Contemporary Issues used to be my favorite class—that is until Starr and Christian disappeared. Now New Lifer Tammy dominates every discussion, including weather updates, with her conservative agenda. I’ve taken to sharpening my fingernails into points. And don’t even get me started about Chemistry with Morris. That should be self-explanatory. Of course, English Lit’s all right. I miss Starr, but One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest sorta reads like my personal memoir.

When the bell finally releases us, we scamper like Pavlov’s dogs to the cafeteria. A few underclassmen fall victim to a well-placed shove as I barrel down the stairs, but no one dares complain. No one wants an up-your-junk meeting with my Docs.

Your next steps...

Still on the YA Scavenger Hunt? There are two things you'll need to move forward. One: My secret number—42. And two: Your next stop on the Hunt. Head to Claire LaZebnik's website for more great book content and goodies! 

And don't forget that somewhere on the TEAM PINK hunt, you'll find bonus content related to my second book, HOW IT FEELS TO FLY, which came out last year.

Oh, and one more thing: ***GIVEAWAYS!***

First, Kim is giving away a $10 Amazon gift card, plus a signed copy of STARR FALL, to one lucky winner! Here's the Rafflecopter: 

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Second, I'm excited to give away signed hardcovers of *both* of my books, plus swag, to one winner! Use this Rafflecopter to enter:

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Happy Hunting! 

~Kathryn

It's the NYC Teen Author Festival!

Welcome to one of my favorite weeks of the year: the NYC Teen Author Festival! Every March, a ton of YA authors from all over the country come together to celebrate our books and talk about things that are important to our readers—and this year, it's the festival's 10th anniversary, which makes it extra special. I've been going to these events since I was in graduate school, aka several years before I was published. The fact that what was once inspiration and aspiration is now part of my professional life makes NYCTAF all the more sweet. 

I will admit, I haven't been as active this week as I have in years past. Pregnancy and a busy schedule have slowed me down a bit. But! Yesterday, I had my first formal event, as part of the annual Big Read. Groups of authors go to schools and libraries all over the city to read from their work and talk to students. My team was sent to Murry Bergtraum High School, which is in lower Manhattan. We spent an hour presenting our books and answering questions from a few different high school English classes—and the kids were fantastic! They listened attentively and had great questions. A few came up to talk to us afterward, and I ended up giving away my author copy of HOW IT FEELS TO FLY to a sophomore who said she'd enjoyed the excerpt I read. Fingers crossed she enjoys the whole book! 

Our Big Read team went out to lunch after leaving the high school. From l-r: Michael Northrop, me, J.J. Howard, Stephanie Kate Strohm, and Tara Crowl. (Not pictured, but also on our team: Sara Mlynowski.)

Tomorrow, I'll be paneling at the New York Public Library on 42nd Street in Manhattan—yes, that's the one with the stone lions. The entire afternoon is filled with author panels; come from 1-5pm to catch them all! I'm on at 4:10, and my group will be sharing snippets from our childhood/teen writings as well as our newest publications, to show how far we've come. 

Then, on Sunday, I'll be at the festival's mega-signing at Books of Wonder! You can catch me from 1-1:30pm, but authors will be at the bookstore until 4pm. 

Check out the full NYCTAF schedule HERE! And if you end up coming to one of the events, please say hello! 

~Kathryn 

Welcome to 2017! (Yes, a Bit Late...)

If you're a regular reader of my blog, you may have noticed that I've been on a bit of a hiatus. This wasn't really planned. Life just spiraled away from me a little bit! For several reasons: 

In case you missed it, I'm pregnant! Baby Girl is due in June. So, the past couple months have been chock full of baby prep (picking out items for our registry, apartment-hunting and then deciding to stay where we are after all, rearranging and redecorating our current place...). Not to mention the brain space I'm already losing to baby worries. It's amazing how time-consuming it can be to think and fret and dream about the tiny human growing inside you! 

Also, I have been writing like a madwoman. I have some friends who have had a hard time doing creative work while pregnant; luckily, I have not been in that boat. I've been both inspired and determined to finish a rewrite of an old project before the baby arrives. Last week, I accomplished Goal One on that front: I sent a complete draft to my agent, to get her feedback. If all goes well, I'll do a revision based on her notes and send it back in May. Keep your fingers crossed for me. :)

Those two things together, plus the occasional freelance assignment, have meant I've had very little time for anything else—this blog included. But that doesn't mean I plan to let this space wither away. In the coming months, keep an eye out for sporadic updates from me. I've also got some pre-scheduled posts planned:

• I'll be participating in the YA Scavenger Hunt in a few weeks. I love this bi-annual event, which showcases tons of Young Adult writers' newest releases and includes So Many Giveaways. Watch this space for a chance to win a ton of books! 
• At the end of 2016, the YA Buccaneers (the group blog I'd been a part of since 2014) shuttered for good. We had a fantastic run, but we'd all reached the point where we were being pulled in too many different directions to keep the blog running smoothly. The site is still up, for now, so visit YABuccaneers.com to take a trip down memory lane. Meanwhile, I've rescued some of my old posts, and I'll be re-sharing them here in the months ahead. 

I'll leave you with my Word of the Year for 2017. This is something I've done since 2013, instead of writing down a list of New Year's Resolutions. This single word represents my goal for myself for a given year—physically, emotionally, mentally, etc. In 2013, I chose Patience. In 2014: Momentum. In 2015: Gratitude. And in looking back at 2016, it appears that I meant to share a word, and never actually did. Whoops! 

But for 2017, I've had one word at the top of my brain for a while now: 

Persist. 

Why? It's not only thanks to the phrase "Nevertheless, she persisted," which exploded following recent political events. It's also that the past twelve months have brought me a number of near-misses in terms of selling new books. It's easy to feel discouraged without another contract on the horizon. Are the two books that I have on shelves the only two I will ever publish? NO. I will continue to write and write and write. I will create manuscripts that I love, in the hope that someone else will love them just as much as I do. I will PERSIST. Even when the going gets tough. Even when everything in my life is about to change, with a baby on the way. Especially under those conditions. 

Do you have a word that encapsulates this year for you and your creative endeavors? I'd love to hear it! 

~Kathryn

2016 Reading Wrap-Up

The end of the year is here, and I promised you one more blog post. Before Christmas, I shared my Top Ten Reads of 2016—check them out if you're looking to lose yourself in a wonderful book! This post's a little more nuts and bolts: I've tallied the final stats from my year-in-reading, and I've made pie charts! Yay, pie charts. 

First things first: my grand total for 2016 is... 93 books! I think that makes this my third most productive reading year ever, after last year (117 books, which will probably never happen again) and 2014 (94 books). Even better than the number: I enjoyed just about everything I read, which means all those hours were completely worth it. 

Here's the breakdown by age level: 

In last year's wrap-up post, I shared that I wanted to read more adult books in 2016. I beat last year's percentage by just a tiny bit, but I don't think I can really count that goal as met. So I'm setting it again for 2017! More adult books. Also, I plan to read a lot more middle-grade, as I dig into revising (and hopefully submitting) a middle-grade manuscript of my own. Expect the chart to be not quite so YA-heavy a year from now. 

Meanwhile, here's the genre breakdown from 2016: 

Last year, I lumped a lot of those smaller categories together, but this year it just didn't seem fair. Obviously, I still read a lot of straight contemporary, but look at what happens if you merge fantasy, historical fantasy, magical realism, and sci-fi! Probably close to a third of what I read this year was "genre" fiction. Maybe I can do even better next year. (That middle-grade manuscript I mentioned above is magical, so I'll need some inspiration...) 

Finally, in an effort to curb my book-buying habits, I returned to my shelves for a lot of rereads this year—16.1%, up from only 6% in 2015: 

Also tallied, but not with a chart: of the 93 books I completed this year, only seven had male authors. Sorry, dudes. It was the ladies' year. 

Do you keep a running list of what you read and how it adds up? Do you use it to help you set goals for the following year? Share in the comments! Meanwhile, I'll be back in January with an update on my blogging plans, and more. 

Happy New Year! 

~Kathryn

Top Ten Reads of 2016

The end is near! The end of 2016, that is. 

This has been a year filled with ups and downs (and downs, and downs, and downs...)—but one area that was absolutely overflowing with ups was my reading life. As of writing this post, I've read 88 books since January 1. It's no match for last year's total, but still a pretty respectable sum. The best part: a lot of those books were truly amazing. 

Out of the 88, I picked my top ten for the year for this post. (I will, of course, issue an update if I read another stunner in the next week and a half!) My only eligibility criteria: regardless of year of publication, I had to read this book for the first time in 2016. Rereads of beloved favorites don't count. (Curious about my reread versus new-read ratio, and other 2016 reading stats? I'll be back with one more blog post before the end of the year with all the reading data you love!) 

So without further ado: My Top Ten Reads of 2016! 

This list really does encompass the entire year. ALL THE LIGHT WE CANNOT SEE was the first book I read in 2016—a strong start!—and I finished THE SUN IS ALSO A STAR in early December. As for demographic, there are two adult books and eight YAs, which is honestly pretty representative of my reading patterns as a whole. And then there's genre: one historical, two (very different) fantasies, one magical realism, and six realistic stories, ranging from happy-ending romance to epic emotional journeys. Not bad! 

ALL THE LIGHT WE CANNOT SEE: A blind French girl and a German boy try to survive the devastation of World War II. Gorgeous prose, and filled with short vignettes that interconnect in surprising ways. 

THE SACRED LIES OF MINNOW BLY: After escaping from the cult that took her childhood and her hands, seventeen-year-old Minnow is in juvenile detention, debating whether to open up to a detective about the circumstances that put her behind bars. 

A DARKER SHADE OF MAGIC: There are multiple Londons—grey, red, white, and black—and Kell is one of the only people who can travel between them. In Grey London, Kell meets Delilah Bard, a thief and unlikely ally who convinces him to take her home to Red London with him. Meanwhile, a dark magic is brewing that will threaten each world...

UP TO THIS POINTE: An unexpected letdown sends ballet dancer Harper fleeing to Antarctica's McMurdo Station, where she comes to terms with her past and begins embracing her future during a cold, dark winter. 

THE SERPENT KING: Three outcasts in rural Tennessee—the son of a disgraced snake-handling preacher, an ambitious teen fashion blogger, and an epic fantasy nerd—face senior year together. Warning: this one's a tear-jerker. 

CHALLENGER DEEP: A before-and-after-and-during story about a high-schooler's descent into mental illness, where nothing is really as it seems. This is a compelling and harrowing portrayal of schizophrenia through the eyes of a person experiencing it in real time. 

ROCKS FALL, EVERYONE DIES: Aspen Quick is part of a magical family that prevents the cliff that overhangs his small town from falling. Aspen also has the ability to steal things from people: memories, emotions, scars. In one summer, he'll learn the uncomfortable truths about his family and his gift. 

GEORGIA PEACHES & OTHER FORBIDDEN FRUIT: When Joanna's radio evangelist father remarries and moves the family from Atlanta to a small north Georgia town, Joanna agrees to keep her sexuality a secret in exchange for her own radio show about teens and faith. Then, she meets a girl...

WHEN THE MOON WAS OURS: Miel grows roses from her wrists. Sam paints moons to hang in the trees. Together, they hide secrets about their respective pasts. Over the course of this lushly written, magical book, they each make peace with who they really are—and who they love. 

THE SUN IS ALSO A STAR: It's Natasha's last day in the United States: she's being deported to Jamaica. It's the day that's supposed to launch Daniel's future: he's interviewing for a college program his Korean parents want more than he does. Natasha doesn't believe in love. Daniel's a romantic and a poet. In one New York City day, they find and fall for each other. 

What were your favorite reads of 2016? Share in the comments! 

~Kathryn 

Friday Five: Mid-October Fun Times

So...it's been quite some time since I did a Friday Five. But I have good reason for my delinquency! I have been busy, busy, busy. Here are just a few of the things that have kept me from blogging...

1) I sent my latest manuscript revision to my agent on Monday! I've been hard at work on this draft since getting her notes in August, making a lot of changes that I think have made the book significantly stronger. I've got my fingers crossed that my agent agrees... :) 

2) One of the reasons I wasn't around in September was that I had an overwhelming amount of freelance work, on top of the manuscript revision I mentioned above. But! On September 30, I concluded my contract with one of my freelance jobs. Since October 1, I have had twice as much time to devote to my fiction, and that has been a genuine pleasure. 

3) Speaking of October 1... I had a birthday! Hello, 34. 

4) I shared on Twitter the other day that I hadn't been reading much while I was deep in revision-land. That said, I did read a few spectacular books over the past couple weeks! Here are three realistic YAs I have to recommend: 

Two sweet love stories (GEORGIA PEACHES and MY UNSCRIPTED LIFE) and one bittersweet love story (SUFFER LOVE). So you can tell what kinds of stories I've been in the mood for lately!  

5) I don't think I've mentioned on here that I've fallen hard for "Jane the Virgin." In particular, I want Rogelio de la Vega to hang out in my vicinity, hashtagging things. (#RogelioMyBrogelio) If you're looking for a charming, funny, sometimes-ridiculous telenovela with plenty of heart and depth, the first two seasons are on Netflix. 

That's all for now...what's up with you? 

~Kathryn 

Welcome to the Fall 2016 YA Scavenger Hunt!

Who's ready to enter to win a TON of books? 

That's right—it's YA Scavenger Hunt time yet again. Interested in participating? Here's what you need to know: 

Somewhere in this blog post, I've hidden an important number. Collect all of the secret numbers of the authors on TEAM ORANGE and add them up. (Don't worry—you can use a calculator!) Then, fill out the entry form HERE. People who have the correct number will be entered to win a copy of every book from TEAM ORANGE! 

The contest is open internationally. Anyone below the age of 18 should have a parent or guardian’s permission to enter. To be eligible for the grand prize, you must submit the completed entry form by SUNDAY, OCTOBER 9, at noon Pacific Time. Entries sent without the correct number or without contact information will not be considered.

Find out more about the entire hunt—including what other authors/teams are participating—by visiting the YASH home page. 

So without further ado...

For this hunt, I'm hosting author Gina Damico, whose new book WAX just released in August. 

Gina Damico grew up under four feet of snow in Syracuse, New York. She has since worked as a tour guide, transcriptionist, theater house manager, scenic artist, movie extra, office troll, retail monkey, yarn hawker and breadmonger. She is the author of the grim-reapers-gone-wild books of the Croak trilogy (CROAK, SCORCH, and ROGUE), HELLHOLE, WAX and the upcoming WASTE OF SPACE (2017), all published by Houghton Mifflin Harcourt Books for Young Readers. She lives in California with her husband, two cats, one dog, and and obscene amount of weird things purchased at yard sales. 

About WAX: 

Paraffin, Vermont, is known the world over as home to the Grosholtz Candle Factory. But behind the sunny retail space bursting with overwhelming scents and homemade fudge, seventeen-year-old Poppy Palladino discovers something dark and unsettling: a back room filled with dozens of startlingly life-like wax sculptures, crafted by one very strange old lady. Poppy hightails it home, only to be shocked when one of the figures—a teenage boy who doesn’t seem to know what he is—jumps naked and screaming out of the trunk of her car. She tries to return him to the candle factory, but before she can, a fire destroys the mysterious workshop—and the old woman is nowhere to be seen.

With the help of the wax boy, who answers to the name Dud, Poppy resolves to find out who was behind the fire. But in the course of her investigation, she discovers that things in Paraffin aren’t always as they seem, that the Grosholtz Candle Factory isn’t as pure as its reputation—and that some of the townspeople she’s known her entire life may not be as human as they once were. In fact, they’re starting to look a little . . . waxy. Can Poppy and Dud extinguish the evil that’s taking hold of their town before it’s too late?

Oooh...sounds super creepy!

Here's Gina's bonus content:

A note from Gina: This is a deleted scene from somewhere around the beginning of WAX. Poppy has just left a party where she was the victim of a humiliating prank – that part is still in the book, but this part was cut because the character was later cut. Enjoy!

And that wasn’t even the end of it. It was only the end of the humiliation portion of the evening; the weird-ass, what-in-the-hell portion had just begun. The one she would never tell another soul about.

For as she flailed down the suburban, poorly-lit street, wet and half-naked and wanting nothing more than to burrow under her covers and never come out again, a voice called out to her.

“Stop.”

Poppy was an intelligent girl. Even in her state of extreme distress, she knew better than to stop and converse with a dark, creepy stranger emerging from the shadows. But something in that voice made her involuntarily pause, literally stopped her in her tracks.

In that one simply syllable: a world of fear. Embedded deep within the man’s baritone, a gritty, scratching rasp. An alien, unknown element that she’d never heard before. Something that had no business being in a human voice. Feedback on a hot microphone. A scientifically impossible sound wave. The screech of an ancient sea monster bubbling up to the surface.

Poppy stayed absolutely still.

The man stepped into the light of a streetlamp. He was ragged and mangy, like a feral dog. Long, greasy hair hung in front of his face. His clothes sagged from his bones. He walked with an odd gait, as if limping on a bad foot. When he got close enough to Poppy—and she let him get close, against her will, as if she’d lost the power to move—she could smell his stale, putrid breath puffing onto her tear-stained face.

She looked up into his eyes—again, not because she chose to—and cringed at the cold, unfeeling orbs looking back at her. The one on the left had a scar next to it, a pale, crescent-shaped gash framing the corner. Later she would remember that they were all black, no whites in them at all, though that could have just been a trick of the light. But what happened next was no trick. She was sure it happened, sure as she’d ever been about anything.

He asked her about the weather.

“Is it going to rain tonight?” he rasped. The aberration was still there in his voice, that staticky undercurrent.

“I don’t think so,” Poppy answered, surprised at how calm she sounded. She did not feel calm.

“Still hot tomorrow? More sun?”

“Yeah. The heat wave is supposed to break next week, I think.”

He gave his head a violent shake, upset by her answer. “That won’t work,” he growled to himself.

And even though Poppy was the one who looked like a drowned lemur, she found herself blurting, “Are you all right?”

The man didn’t answer. He stared at her, curious, cocking his head, as if deciding whether he should unhinge his jaw and devour her whole. Something flashed on his chest—a silver chain around his neck, glinting in the moonlight.

With that, he turned and retreated into the woods, shadows shuddering as he walked through the brush.

That should have been the end of it, but Poppy was still under his spell. Maybe it was the insanity that had come before. Maybe he looked like she felt. Maybe it was the whole To Kill A Mockingbird theme running through the evening and the bizarre thought that this man was her Boo Radley. Whatever it was, Poppy would never be able to figure out what compelled her to shout after him, “What’s your name?”

The shadows trembled.

The woods went silent.

She never saw him again.

Your next steps:  

Still on the YA Scavenger Hunt? There are two things you'll need to move forward. One: My secret number—34. And two: Your next stop on the Hunt. Head to Jeff Garvin's website for more great book content and goodies! 

And don't forget that somewhere on the TEAM ORANGE hunt, you'll find a deleted scene from my new book, HOW IT FEELS TO FLY, which came out June 14. Interested in an additional chance to win a copy, as well as some book swag? Check out the Rafflecopter below!  

Happy Hunting! 

~Kathryn 

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