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Making Space for Growth and Inspiration

This post was originally sent through my author newsletter on May 5th, 2023. To subscribe to my newsletter and receive up-to-date news, musings, and more, click HERE.


"The book will tell you what to do, if you make space for it." 

That's one of the things Christopher Denise, author/illustrator of the Caldecott Honor Book Knight Owl (and illustrator of many other acclaimed children's books) shared during his keynote speech at the New England Society of Children's Book Writers & Illustrators conference last weekend—and it stuck with me. 

Christopher talked a lot about making space: for creativity, for productivity, for growth. He talked about being open: to sparks of inspiration, to projects that seem challenging, to new directions. The theme of the conference was "STRETCH," and many of the workshops were about pushing past boundaries and comfort zones, but Christopher also interpreted the theme as being able to step back—and being willing to go deep. 

Being at the conference was shoving me out of my comfort zone.

I was definitely stretching. 

The "stretch" wasn't the conference itself; I'd attended before, in 2014. I was pre-published. The Distance Between Lost and Found had sold to HarperCollins, and I'd completed my edits, but I was still 10 months away from the release date. I was there with my friend Janae Marks—and it was at this conference that I first met my eventual coauthor, MarcyKate Connolly, face to face!

Pardon the extremely fuzzy 2014 photo. ;) 

So, the conference environment itself felt familiar. But this was my first time being on faculty at any sort of professional conference, leading workshops for my peers. I felt confident in my knowledge of the workshop topics: planning and booking school visits (with Janae) and co-authoring a book (with MarcyKate). I didn't feel confident that anyone there would be interested in what I, a decidedly non-famous, solidly midlist author, had to say. 

My workshops were both scheduled for Sunday, and so on Saturday, I listened to Christopher's inspiring keynote speech, then popped back up to my hotel room to do a couple hours of work on the book revision that was due on Monday. After lunch, I sat in on MarcyKate's first workshop, about creating magic systems for fantasy novels. Then, I went to a workshop for published authors, led by a bookstore employee and a school librarian, with tips for connecting with independent bookstores and libraries. 

In the magic workshop, I came up with an inkling of a new idea—something that might just dovetail perfectly with another topic I've wanted to write about for years, but couldn't figure out how to tackle. In the bookstore/library workshop, I took pages and pages of notes on tactics I may implement to more effectively spread the word about my books.  

That evening, I thought about those two sessions as I went over my notes for my own workshops the next day. And when it was finally time for me to be standing at the front of the room, slideshow cued up, I felt ready. (Or at least, as ready as I could ever be...) 

The workshop on school visits was first, and it was a full house! Standing room only! The room was about 50/50 authors who'd done school visits before and those who hadn't, but wanted to dive in. Janae and I tried to be thorough and honest, particularly about the sometimes thorny topic of setting your fees. We took questions—and suggestions, when someone in the audience had a slightly different point of view based on their own experience. The thing about school visits is, every school is different. Every single one! Different budgets. Different culture. Different atmosphere. Different priorities. While there are definitely some tried-and-true tips for making school visits a part of your author platform, there are other elements that you have to figure out on the fly—every time. 

I finished that workshop feeling absolutely exhilarated. We'd made our points, we'd stayed open to audience participation and conversation, and we seemed to have genuinely helped especially the newbie authors start to think about how they could incorporate school visits into their offerings. 

But I still had one workshop to go!

After lunch, MarcyKate and I were set to talk about the co-authoring process. This workshop also went well—but it was very different. The audience was small, so we decided to go for a more casual vibe. We followed our presentation outline, but also went off on a few tangents based on what people were interested in hearing about co-authoring and about our upcoming book. It felt more like a chat amongst friends than a workshop. Which was fine, and fun! 

And then I quickly changed shoes, turned in my faculty lanyard, and speed-walked to the train station to catch my Amtrak back to NYC. 

Now, as I reflect on what ended up being a very successful weekend (even though I signed zero—ZERO!—books at the faculty book signing, haha...), I have a few more thoughts on making space for inspiration and growth: 

1) Sign up to do the scary thing. Presenting at this conference wasn't my idea; Janae invited me to submit a workshop with her, and then I asked MarcyKate if she wanted to submit a second one. I don't know if I would have had the courage or the confidence to do this on my own! But I am so glad I did. 

2) Take advantage of opportunities. Part of the compensation for being on faculty at the conference was getting to attend for free! I did have some work that had to get done, but I'm so happy I made time to sit in on a couple workshops. The info I learned in the bookstore/library one will be so valuable to me moving forward—and I made a personal connection with one of the presenters. Meanwhile, I can't stop thinking about the idea I had in the session on magic systems. I truly feel like I have cracked this other topic I wanted to write about wide open. (Sorry-not-sorry to be vague...) Would I have come to this new idea without having been in that room, with those people, thinking about that subject (creating rules for a system of magic)? I don't know—but I do know that an idea you can't stop thinking about is magic in itself. 

3) Make space to be in community. The official theme of the conference may have been "STRETCH," but it might as well have been "JOY." Everyone was just so happy to be with one another in person! And even though I wasn't reconnecting with as many friends (I'm technically a member of the New York chapter of SCBWI), I felt that joy as well. To be in a room filled with hundreds of storytellers, celebrating the stories that we create and the readers for whom we create them...it's a dream. Getting away from "real life' for a weekend isn't always easy, but I was reminded that I need that community—that space. 

And now I'm home, processing everything I learned and thinking about what could be next! (And getting tons of snuggles from my kiddo!) 

What do you do to make space in your creative life? It doesn't have to be as big as a conference or retreat. Do you have everyday ways of feeding your creativity and giving yourself room to grow? 

~Kathryn 


What I'm: 

Reading: After spending the weekend with Janae, I picked up her third novel (and the sequel to her debut), On Air With Zoe Washington. I don't want to spoil the events of the first Zoe Washington book for those who haven't read it, but I do want to say that I love Janae's writing. She has such a perfect middle-grade voice: able to tackle tough topics while also staying in the sweet spot of tween/young teen interests and drama. I can't wait to read Janae's next book!

Working on: I turned in my revision of the write-for-hire book on Monday, and on Wednesday, MarcyKate and I received our first-pass pages for The Thirteenth Circle. First-pass pages are basically a final proofread, after the manuscript has been formatted for printing. Once we approve this version, it won't be terribly long before advance copies start making their way out into the world.

Loving: An attendee at my school visit workshop with Janae took this picture, as we were each introducing ourselves and our books. While it's admittedly not the most flattering picture that's ever been taken of me, I love having this record of what turned out to be a pretty cool "first" in my career! 

Is Imposter Syndrome Just Part of the Process?

This post was originally sent through my author newsletter on December 9th, 2022. To subscribe to my newsletter and receive up-to-date news, musings, and more, click HERE.


Recently, I posted a slightly vulnerable Instagram caption about experiencing imposter syndrome. I'd spent the past couple days trying to draft out a virtual writing workshop I will be leading (Writing Fun and Feelings in Chapter Books) in January for the Metro NY chapter of the Society of Children's Book Writers & Illustrators. I'd brainstormed pages and pages of ideas and tips and recommendations, but it wasn't coming together as a workshop. It didn't flow.

I was floundering. 

Meanwhile, I'd just seen a post in a chapter book writers Facebook group I'm a member of alerting people to this upcoming workshop. "Anyone going to this?" the poster asked. "It sounds great!" 

The workshop did sound great—based on the synopsis I'd pitched months ago. (Yes, I pitched this workshop! All of the stress I've felt about it is completely my own fault!) But as of last Friday, I simply couldn't make it work. That's where the imposter syndrome slithered in. A useful topic idea, sure to be informative and engaging...but what makes you think you're the right person to teach it? 

I hit a wall. I closed the document on my computer. I didn't look at it over the weekend, or during my workday on Monday. And then, on Tuesday (admittedly after a bit of nervous procrastinating), I opened up a new presentation on Google Slides. I started trying to find the bullet points in the mess of brainstorming I'd done last week. I looked for themes and highlights. Big-picture advice, and then the more granular tips and specific examples and personal anecdotes that would fit under each umbrella. 

By Wednesday, I had an outline—which meant I had a workshop. 

I still have a lot more to do, of course. Now that I know the basic structure of my talk, I need to script out what I want to say for each slide and bullet point. And then I need to loop in my Class Critters editor; the workshop will be a conversation between the two of us, albeit with me taking the lead. I'm sure she'll have some points I haven't thought of. And then...I have to practice the thing, so I'm not looking at notes the whole workshop! 

But right now, a week after feeling like there was no way I could do this—I know I can. I just have to make it happen. 

Why share this process? Because it is not at all uncommon, in my writing career as well as for just about every writer (and creator) that I know. 

Every single time I revise a novel—and my husband will attest to this!—there is a point where I throw my hands in the air and shout, "I broke the book!" It is officially too much of a mess to clean up. Too difficult of a puzzle to solve. 

Until, eventually, I figure it out. 

This happens with my freelance writing too. My dance articles, for instance: some of them practically write themselves (I've been doing this for 15 years, after all). But then, every once in a while, I encounter a story that just will...not...come...together. The interviews were productive. I know my subject matter. But it won't turn into a cohesive, concise story. 

Until, eventually, I figure it out. 

Why would crafting a writing workshop be any different? 

And yet, in that moment of crisis, I'm always certain that this will be the one I can't figure out. This will be the deadline I miss, or the piece of writing that gets rejected—or the workshop that flops. So I'm documenting my latest dive into imposter syndrome here, as a reminder to myself the next time I'm in the weeds: I do know what I'm doing. I've been here before, and I've found my way through to the other side. 

~Kathryn


What I'm: 

Reading: I finally got around to reading The Marvellers by Dhonielle Clayton, after having it on my list for months—and it did not disappoint! Dhonielle has written a vibrant new take on the magical school genre. Ella Durand is the first Conjuror child allowed to attend the Arcanum Institute for Marvellers. As she's trying to prove that her magic is every bit as valid as theirs—that she fits in and belongs at the Institute—a mystery unfolds involving a criminal from decades ago escaping from prison. With whimsical writing, an evocative and fully fleshed-out world, and diverse characters, this series is definitely going to be a new kidlit classic. 

Watching: "Wednesday" on Netflix. There were a few plot holes, and the dark tone was pretty different than past "kooky" entries in the Addams Family canon, but overall, we liked it! 

Listening to: Did you know there is a Hanukkah rip-off/parody of "Shake it Off"? I found this when my daughter wanted to listen to Hanukkah music the other night. Here it is. You're welcome.  

Loving: This picture of "Santu," as lovingly depicted by my 5-year-old.  

Venturing Outside the Comfort Zone

So, I'm leading a writing workshop tonight at Postmark Cafe in Park Slope. And I'm excited! I'm also a little nervous. But mostly excited! The workshop is part of an ongoing series of events my church has been hosting. I was enlisted in January by the event coordinator to lead "something to do with writing," topic/structure of my choice. When she asked me, I was flattered and interested. Then, after I said yes, the nerves set in. This will be my first real workshop — the first I'm leading on my own. I was a TA in grad school, and ended up lead-teaching half a semester of undergrad Shakespeare when the professor had some health issues, but it's been two and a half years since that last teaching experience. I'm feeling a little rusty.

Another element that makes this both really interesting and a little nerve-wracking is that the workshop isn't entirely about writing. I'm expecting a mix of writers and non-writers. My primary goal won't be to improve the participants' writing. (Though obviously, that would be a nice side-effect!) Instead, I'm using a writing exercise to launch reflection and group discussion. I'm hoping that everyone will jump into the free-writing portion, with my guidance, and then will be willing to share what they wrote and talk about what everyone else wrote. I'm hoping, in short, not to hear crickets chirp when I'm done with the introduction and explanation portion of the evening.

So what is my workshop about? I'm going to use Joe Brainerd's I Remember as a jumping-off point for people to write their own "I remember..." stories. It's not an uncommon workshop idea. I had variations on this assignment in two different workshops in grad school, and both times, the results were really interesting and useful to me as a writer. However, because tonight's workshop has the church connection, we'll specifically look at memories related to spirituality/church/faith. I want to find commonalities and discussion points among people's memories about the turning points in their spiritual journeys, whatever those might be. Questions, concerns, and realizations. Ups, downs, and in-betweens. Certainties and doubts.

I have my lesson plan. I've made handouts. (What writing workshop is complete without handouts?) I've got my notes on what I want to be sure to say, and I've got an idea for what I'll write during the free-writing time, so I don't draw a blank when I'm trying to inspire everyone else to write. I have a handful of extra pens and a stack of notebook paper. I think I'm ready!

I have no idea how many people to expect. It's a one-time thing, and it's a Tuesday, and people have lives. I have my fingers crossed for enough people that I won't feel like I'm talking to tumbleweeds, but not so many that it doesn't feel personal. I don't know quite what that number is; I guess I'll find out. And I hope they're talkative, but not so talkative that they don't write. And I hope I'm ready to think on my feet, because I know from past teaching experiences that I'll have to!

Regardless of how it goes, I'm eager to share something that I'm passionate about — writing — in a new context. I'm grateful for the opportunity to try something new and to step outside my comfort zone, both in terms of leading a workshop, period, and in terms of the writing portion of the workshop being a means to an end, rather than the end itself. And who knows — maybe it will go so well that people will want to do it again! Fingers crossed...

Any advice from the peanut gallery for tonight?

~Kathryn :)